Why does happily ever after have to be so hard to get to?

Ever since i was a little girl my favorite movie has been cinderella. Such a great movie...and well its a fairytale.
I have always dreamed that one day i would see my life as a fairytale and find my prince charming and live happily ever after...but lately...it just seems like its getting to be farther and farther out of my reach.
Especially these past few years.
My mom met my dad on a blind date and well they didnt fall in love right away but eventually they did. He was her prince charming and if he was still alive today i know that they would have lived happily ever after. My dad passed away almost 3 years ago in a tragic accident that cost him his life and the happiness of my mother.
My fairytale started when my mothers and fathers ended sadly enough and i hate to say it. but i feel in love with a guy i met on a trip. we spent one night together and didnt start actually talking until my dad was in the hospital. he was always there for me. Im head over heels in love with this boy. He is everything i have ever wanted and needed...yes i need him. i love him so much sometimes it actually hurts. he is my prince charming and one day i hope to marry him and have my happily ever after...
but...lately...lately it seems like the vision of my happily ever after is fading. seems like no matter what i do i always find some way to screw up and make him upset with me. as we speak ho doesnt even want to see me.
im so pathetic im sitting at home in my room crying. but i cant help it.
it seems like we(people in general) go through so much just to try to get our happily ever after...we fake who we are..or we jump in to it way too fast. and some of us lose our way off the path...only to be brought back on to it by another love.
i dont want to be just like everyone else who gets married and divorced i want to be married once. i want to be truly happy. i want him...i want to make this work i want to stop all my screw ups.
some people...there are a slight few...who actually make it in this world and have their fairytales...but they have gone through so much and very hard times to get where they are...i just hope that one day i can make it through all the rubble.
and find my fairytale...

Always wondering whats next

-Dg

ok im new at this so lets just see how it goes

This is definitely something i never thought i would do...but a friend told me how it really helps her release and vent. So i figured i would give it a shot see how i like it.
It feels werid..."blogging" my life for the whole world(well anyone in the world) to read...

Well lets get this party started shall we?
I am 22..well almost 22.
my life is constant drama...there is always something happening.

so right now i will blog about my trip this past weekend.

I went to visit a friend she lives about 3 hours away from me and is my absolute best friend in the world. I have known this wonderful and beautiful lady since...grade...8? which makes us friends for...9 years now i believe...which for me is a long time(i moved around alot when i was younger, i will blog about that another time) she is my confidant, my sister, she is always there when i need her..good or bad ( for better or for worse :P) day or night she is there...as i am for her. i trust her with my heart and my soul and wish nothing but happiness and bliss for her. without her pushing her way in to my life i would be lost in a world full of unhappienes and pain.

anyways this weekend right before i left i got fired from a job of like 4 months(didnt really like it that much anyways) the people i worked with...well lets say i didnt really get any of them :P so like i said i got fired over a stupid reason that really i shouldnt have got fired for in the first place. so off i went to visit and i had a good time just hanging out relaxing...then i got in a fight with my boyfriend saturday night(to which he still doesnt want to talk or see me) and then to top it all off sunday morning i woke up to break my one and only pair of glasses. so now im walking around jobless, boyfriends pissed at me and with a pair of glasses that are crazy glued together. but its looking up...i have an interview tuesday which i am told i pretty much have the job (which i would be making like 50X more than my last job) and the boss just wants to meet me. so thats good and that means once i work like two night i can get new glasses and eventually start doing everything i need/want to do. i want to buy a house next year and take a photography class...go back to school eventually...so many things to do...but the boyfriend thing will clear up as it always does, we love eachother and well every couple have their fights its healthy.
so now as i end this blog(hopefully i get better at this) i am sitting at home in my room preparing to watch The sisterhood of the traveling pants lol the first one and eating goldfish. :P not real ones just the cracker ones.
so until next time(possibly better)

always wondering whats going to happen next

-DG